Monday, September 21, 2009

Remembering Ace

My niece, Laurel, just turned 15. I wasn't there to celebrate with her, but I wanted to share a beautiful tribute of her Dad that she posted on facebook.

Laurel, I hope you don't mind. I wanted to save this somewhere and share more about your Daddy and your words were so wonderful and perfect. I love you!


God got tired of taking old people.
He needed a strong handy man with a gold heart.
My daddy was perfect for the job.

It's crazy how quickly life can turn around. I've learned not to hold grudges; don't be mad at anyone for long, it may be the last time you see them. I would rather have a dad, and be mad at him, then not have one at all. I don't have my daddy to walk me down the isle, or have my daddy take me fishing again. I don't have my daddys' rough but gentle hands to hold. I haven't seen my dad in a year, and i know he missed me. Well now he can see me all the time, looking down from heaven, guiding me. He's the best guardian angel i could ask for. I'd give anything to get one more hug, and hear one more i love you. He told everyone that i was the only one he would kill for, the only one he would sacrifice his life for. I was daddy's little girl, his Pride & Joy. He did so many things for me, and to make sure i loved life. He had a heart 10 sizes too big. He always wanted to help someone, no matter what is meant he lost. He told me, that one day if he died, that he didn't want anyone crying at his funeral. He didn't want it to be a moment of sadness and loss. He said he wanted people to celebrate his life. And celebrate him being in a better place. I tried my hardest to make his wish come true, but as the tears fell, i also smiled for him like he wanted me to. He always told me about the song " My sacrifice " by Creed; and the lyrics that go " When your with me, i'm free, i'm careless, i believe. " Well daddy, now you can be free, you can be careless, and you can believe it. Because you'll be with me every day of my life now. Beside me. Guiding me. I knew my daddy was standing right beside me the whole time. I knew he was holding my hand. He was there, he was. And he'll always be with me. 08/09/09 is a day i'll always remember now on, and it won't be a happy holiday. I miss you & love you Daddy.

Updates on us


There have been several reasons why I haven't posted in the past few months. The primary reason was that I didn't have our pictures from our annual beach trip uploaded and accessible on my computer. Months have gone by and I still don't have the pictures from our trip, but I'm going to write a post anyway because too much has happened to wait on them.

"I am the Lord your God, who holds your right hand,
and I tell you, 'Don't be afraid. I will help you." Isiah 41:13

A lot has happened in the past few months- good and bad. It's hard to even begin with the bad for I start to cry just thinking about it. My brother Jan "Ace" Hanes died in a car accident on August 9, 2009. I was at my Mom's house when we found out the news and am so thankful I was there to be with her and she was there for me too. We were speechless and couldn't believe the news as the coroner spoke, "I'm sorry ma'am, but your son passed away this morning."

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Psalm 34:18

I remember the day as if it were yesterday; words shared with family and friends, planning the funeral, what we placed in his casket, the details of the service, the whole nine yards. It would be a paper if I wrote it all. But, what I want to share is what I'm praying for. Since the morning I received the news, my constant pray has been that God will be glorified in my brother's death. That somehow God would speak to those who do not know Him and that they would be changed. I may never know til I reach His celestial place what impact Ace's death made on others, but I pray for my family, for my friends, and for Ace's friends. I pray that God will be glorified and that they will find rest in Him.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened and I will find you rest."
Matthew 11:28

Monday, September 14, 2009

My brother

Jan "Ace" Kneisly Hanes, Jr.
I will always love you!

Holding his daughter, Laurel right after she was born, 1990

Caring for me, his sister, at the duck pond

Good times at Grandma and Grandpa Hanes' house in Ohio


A trip to Texas, 1989.

Fun in the sun at Dad and Erika's old house, 2000.

Mom and Ace dancing at our wedding, 2004.

Mom and Ace visiting right after Josh was born, 2007.

Playing with Rachel, 2008

Playing with Josh, 2009